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I want to thank everyone who offered me encouragement and support over the last 6 months. I'm not sure that I would have made it without all of you. Being able to share some of my deepest feelings with you has helped me heal and learn to be okay with how I feel. Because of you I'm Epic
Today was my third day out riding again after months of being sidelined! It was Epic! I have chronic back and neck pain and anxiety. I have not done well with the changes to my body over the years. At 17 my life was over. I spent years not being able to eat and talk. I have up my hopes and dreams. I stopped flying planes and believed my flight instructor when he told me I would never be able to get my pilots license. I had no WHY!
Even just walking down the street was hell! felt like I was Kim Jong-un or Donald Trump. People would always stare and when I could talk you could hear a pin hit the floor. It took years to become comfortable. I still remember that first day at school when that one teacher always asks everyone to tell who and why. I dreaded this.
I know I ever would have healed if it were not for my daughter. After she was born I really had to suck it up! It is so nice to be able to go to a store and not feel pain, or anger, or sadness at the simplest reaction.
Today we were out on a bike ride. God I love her. Because of her I rode my bike a 100 miles to the beach, because of her I started dreaming about Epic Adventures and started #EpicSurvivors. Because of her I survived one of the hardest years of my life this year. Learning to eat again for the second time was almost too much. My PTSD went full bat shit. I'm still trying to learn to eat and have giving up many foods I loved. After not being able to eat for 10 years of my life I'm just happy to drink a Coke with a smile.
Thank you God for giving me a life and giving me so many chances to suck it up! Because of God and the two wonderful souls he put into my life in alive with a WHY and the ability to dream and have dreams. Thank you Eva for being my daughter. Darlene thank you for giving up so much of your life for me. You have kept me alive.